The First Time "I HATE MYSELF"...!!!

I really want to end my life since yesterday...
I wish that I never be born in this world because I only make people mad....

I'm just wishing to GOD to tell me the truth about my life...

Why should I be born? What is my duty in this world? What must I do?
PLEASE ANSWER ME GOD...

WHY YOU NEVER ANSWER MY QUESTION???

GOD... I'm So Scared.....

Tomorrow is the ceremony day, which I become the part of the PASKIBRA again...

And for the first time, I never feel so scared like this since I have stage fever when I was kids...

Now I feel so scared and shaken, I'm afraid that I make a mistake...

GOD, PLEASE HELP ME FOR TOMORROW...
HELP ME TO NOT DOING ANY MISTAKE DURING THE CEREMONY...

AMEN...