Why This Happen To Me Everytime???

Dear Lord...
I'm really don't know why am I born to be this way...
I feel like I'm very useful to become a human...
I can't do anything myself...
every time I ask for help, always the trouble that I make...

Why Lord?
Why I'm so weak?
Why can't I become much stronger than I was...
I want to change my life...

I don't want to be a whiny person anymore...
I want to be brave, being respect, and can be a good person...

Why I live like this???
:'(